We are family~

Jesse came over this afternoon to jam. Was pretty fun considering I cannot do even a quarter of what he can. But it being what runs in the Songs' blood (*ahem ahem Some Songs), Jesse was very patient with teaching me. xD Thanks Jess.

Yes. This goof ball is damn good at the guitar.

He was showing me this hilarious vid one YouTube about this ventriloquist who's bloody good. I'm telling you, his lips don't move. And the stupid puppet kept going, 'I kill you!' Haha. Some pun to mock Islamic terrorists. Come to think of it, that guy pretty much insulted almost every other religion either. Guess that's fair. LoL. Sorta.

Went to watch Enchanted with Min, Serena, Sis and Jesse tonight. One word; McDrrreeeeeaaaammmmyyy@Patrick Dempsey. *ssss

Look at those McDreeeaammmyy eyes.

Anyway, it felt nice going out with family. (Serena included xD) They're the people you go to when you feel down and out. Your life support. It felt good tonight. Things have been rough and its nice to escape from it all for a while. [No pun intended to anyone, seriously]. Don't know why but sometimes I kinda forget. How truly important family can be. And how they'll always be there in the end.

The movie was alright. It's definitely different. Sorta like all the Disney FairyTales put into one? But it was really entertaining cos we laughed our arses off. All those fairytale puns. Haha. Really. But the company was GREAT. So fun to go out like that again. How long has it been? A year since I've been to the movies?

Yes. That was Min's main purpose. LOL.

We had Serena at "OMG. Jess and Jesse!! So cute.."

So, that's about it. I seem to be feeling alot better too. YAY~ Praise God. xD

Leave you McDreamy fans out there with a little turn off. ;p Or maybe turn on for all you die-hards. 0_0


Min...?

7+3=10 xD

Seven things you plan to do before you die
1. buy a gibson v-factor (i don't care that everyone else thinks its ugly ;p).
2. meet ricardo izecson de santos@kaka.
3. go somewhere nice from which i can overlook the whole city.
4. watch a live football//basketball match in the states.
5. ride a sexy, red Vespa all around town.
6. perform in front of a public audience with the band.
7. be a size 2.

Seven things you can do
1. play the guitar in an amateur manner.
2. scream really loud when kaka comes on tv.
3. swim like a really smart hippo who can water trade.
4. watch cartoons for one whole bloody day.
5. cuss like a mad dog.
6. lmao til i need to pee.
7. puke at lovu lovu hip-huggers. xD

Seven most repeated phrases or words
1. uhh.. who CARES?
2. wth?!
3. damn you.
4. what the.. !@#$%
5. sorry?
6. get a life, or a better hobby.
7. okaaayyyy..

Seven physical traits you look for the opposite sex
1. talltalltall.
2. goooorrrrrgggeeeeoooouuuussss smile.
3. not overloaded at the 'guns'(muscles) *faints*
4. pretty eyes.
5. cool hair.
6. broad like a kick-ass sportsman *ssssss.
7. not skinnier than me. LOL. i know, contradicting.

Three names you go by
1. jess.
2. ah bee.
3. phingphong. -.-''
(the last two are off limits-- seriously ;p)

Three things you like about yourself
1. the fact that i depend wholly on God and God alone.
2. my on-and-off tendency to not care what some strangers think.
3. how i'm so blessed-- like you cannot believe.

Three things you don't like about yourself
1. my fat currently. i cannot lose weight too easily.
2. my habit of being vulgarly mean to people.
3. the way i always say the wrong things esp during first impressions. ugh.

Three things that scares me
1. FROGS. g-r-o-s-s.
2. blood.
3. loss.

Three Drinks *non and alcoholic*
1. milo.
2. sparkling juice. =))
3. er.. sugary liquids?

Three of your Daily Essentials
1. music.
2. television.
3. company.

Three things that you are wearing now
1. tshirt.
2. long pyjama pants.
3. unmentionables.

Three of my favourite movies
1. what a girl wants.
2. SAVED.
3. the notebook.

Two Truths and A Lie
1. truth #1: i am fat.
2. truth #2: i am very sensitive at the most inappropriate times.
3. lie: when i fart, flowers grow.

Three things about the opposite sex that appeals you
1. their smile.
2. personality-- knows how to control the situation by saying the write things at the write times.
3. open-mindedness and friendliness.

Three careers that you are considering, or have considered
1. chemistry.
2. design.
3. psychology.

Three people you would like to tag
1. angelica. (happy? ;p)
2. jesse. (since we just discovered each others' blogs)
3. julia. (with hopes that she'll start her blog up again)

God. <33

I wouldn't call today one of those good days. Maybe just a slightly rough one. But seeing as how I don't know how to put the experience in words, I will not.

I know SPM is over and everything, but the past month-- during intensive preparation and throughout SPM itself-- I felt something that just wouldn't go away. And i love it. Now, I know this sounds melodramatic, but getting through SPM was no stroll in the park nor as easy as stuffing a piece of cheesecake down your throat. It was hard. Definitely. No matter what people claim it to be. Some took it easy, some a little harder than others and some, well, don't really care. But it was important to me. It still is. Straight As were and are all I want.

I've been told that all the pressure I experienced came from me. Yeah, basically I was my own nagging parent and teacher. The weight you bear when you set such high expectations for yourself isn't something you could laugh off over an afternoon of cartoons. There were many times that I really wanted to give up. More often than necessary actually. And I could've. I easily would've. But I didn't. If I was all on my own at the time, I know for certain that I would've thrown in the towel weeks before SPM had started.

But I wasn't alone.

God helped me. He did soo much for me that I cannot explain it. He gave me strength. So much of it that I couldn't give up. How could I have? He's given me everything and I just couldn't waste it. Not after He'd brought me so far. This was actually inspired by this message left by some blogging competition winner in the little magazine the school was handing out. She said something like, God has blessed me with so much so I couldn't waste all that He has given me. And that's what drove her to work hard. That's what drove me to work hard. I kept telling myself that every time I felt tired and was at my lowest point. It worked. All the way through the exams. And I've come out of it a stronger person. (I hope). I've grown closer to God and I just cannot contain. Thinking about Him makes me happy and believing in Him gives me hope that's greater than all the galaxies put together. <33 style="font-weight: bold;">SO worth it. xD


Tomorrow Jesse's coming over. We're gonna jam. xDD

Absolutely cannot wait. Quote Jesse,

jayCeE ]- I h8 eu says:

i antixipating it one day

LMAO.

A 5-year Contradiction.

SPM IS OVER!!

Hello freedom. Hello late nights. Hello extremely spicy food. Hello walking in the rain without having to use an umbrella. Hello badminton and basketball. Hello day-long tv sessions. Hello anime. Hello blogging. Hello internet. Hello long baths! (quote Gertrude on the last day of SPM.--lmao).

Nothing smells sweeter than the pain-staking, minute-to-minute freedom, enjoyed doing absolutely nothing useful or educational. Say goodbye to years and years of knowledge, agonizingly fitted into a brain with the capacity of your ordinary household cutlery drawer and hello to the contradiction of everything that we've been thought to comprehend through BM and Moral i.e filling your free time with ''beneficial" activities like reading encyclopedias and surfing the internet for nothing more than educational information and not wasting a minute of your time on the 'less important' and 'time-wasting' activities such as chatting with your friends, watching tv or basically anything that is fun.


Now all this free time is pressuring me to use every minute of it doing everything that I've been deprived of these past few months. But truth be told, like Deb said, this year has definitely been filled with plenty of new experiences.

For me, it would be..

JANUARY

New Year's Eve Party.


New Year's Day Party.


Pak Teo's 71st Surprise Birthday.


McIncests' Debut.

My First Time Out With My Younger Whole Family.


Parv's Birthday @Tao's.

FEBRUARY

Chinese New Year Visiting.


Valentine's Day Card-Making @Interact // Sport's Day// Youth.


APRIL

Santubong Trip.

ER 07.

MAY

Grandma's 80th Birthday Dinner.

GENREV concert.
(My FIRST picture with a member of GENREV)


OFFSTAGE MINOR practice.


OFFSTAGE MINOR'S last performance.
(Teacher's Day)

JULY

My FIRST Rainfest.


AUGUST

Julia's Surprise 17th Birthday.


My FIRST EVER live football match.
[Champions Youth Cup]
(Bayern Munich vs. PSV // Chelsea vs. Malaysia)


Serena's Graduation Dinner.


NOVEMBER

Last week in St. Teresa.
[Love you guys <3]

This year I've met a lot of great people and gotten to know the old ones even better.

(Sorry. Stole some of the pictures of your Friendsters. Yes, I'm a stalker. GOMEN ^^".)

Took me all afternoon to put all this together but damn it's worth it, even if it's irregularly spaced. Hell yeah, it drives me mad just looking at the imperfection of it. But heck, who cares now.

These people are irreplaceable. I wouldn't ever want to lose them. Not for anything. And to think, we may all part really soon. The worst part is, there's nothing you can do.

I know how much I complain about being in Form5 but looking back, I wouldn't trade all of this in for anything. By the looks of it, I don't seem much like a Form5 student that was in the process of SPM preparation do I? Yeah, well, I never do.

Like Julia said, we've been brought up in this safe environment whereby for five years, you'd recognize the people that walked past you in the corridors every morning. Everything would feel safe, even if it were just a routine. And now, we're leaving it all behind us.

It all went by too fast and too slow all at the same time. And now, the hot topic that has been on everyone's lips for the past 5 years is over. It is done. Just.like.that.


I'm missing you guys already.

BioBioBio.

Grabbed from gapingvoid
Courtesy of Serena

Note to future SPM-ers: DO NOT take a whole afternoon off stalking your way through Friendster then take a near 2-hour nap two days before your last paper if you have the will power of a chimpanzee.

Was close to giving up on Friday. After taking a whole afternoon off, it was extremely difficult to return to my Biology books again. Tried every way possible to boost my 'morale'. In the end I just caved in and did what I always do, being the useless sap that I am. I called Ju. Yes, as always I relied on her to motivate me as well as handle everything else that I'm incapable of doing for me. I keep telling myself to grow a spine and be more self-reliant. I think it's pretty clear how that turned out.

But thank God because He managed to save me yet again. And today, I woke up at 11am (yeah yeah, that's pretty early la ok) and I studied till around 5 and then earlier on at 9pm til around 12:30 am. I'm not sure if I'm studying all the right things and I'm not sure how well I'm gonna do this Monday but I trust God. He'll make it work out. And if things don't work out then that's fine too. His plan. It's all in there. At this point, I'm just content with the effort I put in.

So, a note to all students out there-- if things don't feel right, just pray. Things always work out in the end. Even if the end sometimes is a little further than we want it to be. Some prayers may seem to go unanswered but sometimes it just takes a while for them to be answered or maybe there's just a better plan written out for you. In the end, it just comes down to trust. =)

So in two days I'll be watching anime, finishing Before We Began, blogging more than ever, swimming, playing my sexy arse guitar every night, playing badminton for hours and hours, hanging on the phone with Ju (which we might need to postpone for the time being ;p), doodling, playing ball, doing cardio, downloading songs, drooling over hottie Gosling, catching the latest season on Grey's Anatomy (somehow), resuming lessons with Mr. Si, playing paintball, going across Sarawak River with Ju, going to Santubong to celebrate new year with my nieces and cuzzes...

But most importantly, I'll be

SHOPPING AT KUALA LUMPUR!!!!

Yes, burning holes in my parents' pockets with purchase after purchase, watching anime til the wee hours in the morning with my sister on her laptop, sniffing the air that MCR will be sniffing in 15 days and stepping on the dirt from their shoes that are left on KL grounds (which is about as close as I can get to touching them), losing my lunch over the overbearing lovu-lovu antics of the ever-popular hip huggers of KL and having be constantly reminded to clutch my bag nowhere further than my sides.

Ah, bliss. Can hardly contain. Wheeee~

I'm beginning to think that maybe this entry is a little ahead of itself and I shouldn't really be naming all my post SPM activities at this current moment in time. Hmm.

Anyhow, just ONE freaking day left of busting our arses and it's excruciating freedom of 6 months for those who will be going for NS/Form6, 3 months for the normal student getting ready to step into college life and 1 month for those who are a little more eager planned out and have already enrolled into their respective colleges.

Yayness. Yayness. Yayness. xD

Wargh!~

5 essentials to de-stress and unwind:

1. Always keep your mobile//mp3 player// iPod// discman// any electronic device of choice by your side at all time. When feeling overworked and are at the verge of defeat, reach for said electronic device. Good music always helps you to relax and recollect.
   
   
2. Get enough sleep. Going to bed at 3 in the morning and waking up at 12 in the afternoon is NOT a good idea if you're planning on getting any studying done the following day.
   
   
3. Be sure to take 5-minute breaks in between studying from time to time. Sitting in front of a table filled with books for long hours continuously isn't necessarily always healthy. (unless your concentration is at it's peak, then it's not advisable to stop-- if you have the attention span of a poodle; exhibit A: the person typing this entry.)
   
   
4. If you find yourself drowsy and drooling all over your books but you have one chapter left to cover, take a 15-minute nap. If all else fails, reach for a sugary item of your choice. The surge of energy will boost you up just enough to finish whatever's left. (i can't guarantee what good this will have on your health though ;p)
   
   
5. Most important of all, never ever forget that you have someone who is backing you up and walking you through all of this-- all the way to the finishing line. GOD. xD When you're feeling tired and alone and you feel you just cannot go on, remember always to say a little prayer. If you close your eyes and just let go completely of everything that's holding you down you can feel Him there. Promise : ) Certified and tested. Sometimes it helps to put on some religious music, just to relax and unwind. When you think about it-- everything that He has given you, how far He has brought you-- you won't feel as tired because you know you have help. I almost forgot that I have God by my side the other day and things were alot harder. Nothing seemed easy. But it helps to know that you're not in this alone and you have all your efforts and achievements to show for it. The strength that has kept you going this far, it is no longer the work of man alone. So, quote Cynthia; just let go, and let God.

Just 9 more days to go, SPM candidates. All the best. And well, whatever will be, will be.
GAMBATTE!~



p/s Found this super cute sketch of Advent Children. Haha.

Historyday.

"Saya tidak mahu hidup lagi. Saya mahu mati!" - Deborah

"The colours will merangsangkan your minda." - Jessica

I studied with Deb today. SEJARAH. Was pretty good. Phew. 3 days.

It was pretty slow moving. But hey, at least it was effective.

Conclusion of the day: Vladimir Lenin and Joseph Stalin, from Russia, are GAY. xD