Fall for you.

I'm in deep poopy. Deep sh*t. Ugh. What the hell am I doing? :sss

If you're there, then I don't want to be. If you aren't there, I want you to be.

Let's turn back time a little bit. Pretend that never happened. Just be you, with me, okay? :( Don't drift. Don't be afraid. Just give me a chance.


To be me, with you.



So breathe in so deep,
Breathe me in,
I'm yours to keep.

Love, ME.

If you were to ask me how I was doing, I wouldn't know how to answer you. When you're in too deep, all you want to do is get out. But when you're not in at all, you just don't know where you are.

I am tired. I am angry. I am lost. I am confused. I am neutral. I am sober. I am irritated. I am unhappy. I am content. I am insecure. I am lost.

I don't know where I am. I don't know what I'm doing. I don't know where I'm going. I don't know if it was better to have known you or not to have known you at all. If I find out, I'll tell you. But I don't know what I'm looking for, what it is I want to hear, or don't want to hear. What do I want? Who am I waiting for?


I miss you. That's okay, right? You're so far away.

I'm worried about you. Is that okay too? Come look for me when you're ready, okay? Because I'm waiting to lend myself to you.


My Father is my refuge, always has been. He is my direction and my purpose. He's what keeps me going. Life is meaningless, if no one defines it. He defines my life. The only one I can trust with my whole self, and still cry on His shoulders. I don't deserve You. But You stay anyway. Help me to remember. Amen.